You know what? I don't like people in my personal space for any length of time. I don't mean like, in my house, but like, physically within like 3 or 4 feet for any length of time? That makes me irritable. I used to think this didn't really apply to close friends and family, but really, it does. So now it's 1:30 in the morning and someone's been within about 3 or 4 feet of me for like, 5 or 6 hours. And I'm irritated. And somehow, the more I try to give off a "please sit further away" vibe, the closer people get. Especially if the person in question is 9.
Holly's always had a way of knowing exactly when I'm most likely to hate physical contact and decide that's the time for some. I don't know how she does that. It's especially bad in summer, when it's real hot out, and I'm like "ugh it's hot everybody stay away!" That's exactly when she gets clingy.
Tonight she's not clingy, but she's sitting right next to me and it's making me irritable. But I can't say it's irritating, because you know, she's 9. How's she supposed to take that.
Not like I hate people touching me at all or something, you know, if someone slaps me on the shoulder and sez "Hey Val!" that's not gonna bother me (but if they say "Hey Howard!" I might get irritated). I'm not going to like, walk on the other side of the street or something just to stay away, not like I dislike people and I'm antisocial. Just, you know, get away. And how can people not notice my cringing when they get too close? It's especially bad like, at someone's house when you're sitting on the sofa, cuz like, you can't move away without getting up. And then people sit near me, and move in close for whatever reason, and seriously, am I not cringing well enough? Do I just THINK I give off a "get away from me" vibe when actually it's a "come closer I like you" vibe? Maybe when the hairs on the back of my neck stand up, people think I'm cold and figure if they get closer they can keep me warm. News flash, I ain't cold. How can I be cold when it's like 90 degrees in October.
Get away from me.
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